Lo and behold, I’ve been eating ‘clean’ for two days, and even though Tuesday I still felt exhausted, I was no longer epically groggy, and actually managed to write about 1200 words before bed. So yeah. Looks like I can either cheat on food (or even not just cheat, but push the boundaries a bit), or I can have words :\
On the one hand, it kind of sucks that writing is the first thing to go. On the other, it’s SUPER nice to actually KNOW what’s going wrong with my body after all these years, and getting a good sleep at night is INCREDIBLE, and now at least I have control over what is happening, which, wow, those of you who have stuff go wrong with your body will know, control is an incredible gift.
Being food intolerant sucks, but of all the things it might have been, at least it’s the one that puts the control firmly back in my court, and I am so, so grateful.
So hopefully tonight, more words! 🙂 How Not To Take Over The World is at about 16k out of about 70k, and as this is a rewrite, I’m hoping to have it done by the end of the year. I probably won’t release it until after Sanctuary 3, though, so you won’t have to wait as long between books 1 and 2… Or then again, I might just release it. /shrug. Freedom is a heady thing, ha 😀
(I realised the other day that if I can manage to release 3 titles per year, as I’ve done this year, it will still take me ~30 years to publish everything I think of as a ‘current work’ >.< And of the three titles this year, none of them were actually written this year, and publishing them ate into my writing time, sooooooo….. *cries* Too many stories, insufficiency of hours! 🙂 )
I just caught up on my RSS reader after *mumble* weeks due to being slammed with school/work, so I have just seen most of your food intolerance posts…I am so sorry! Rampant food intolerance is the worst. I hate when you think you’re cool with some delicious food item but it just turns out that it was sneaking up on you and actually, hey, have some sudden terrifying depression and insomnia!
I am glad you’re feeling better, though. People always seem startled when they ask if I cheat and I say, “NO NEVER NO I ain’t even looking at your tray of cookies, sucker” and *mean it.* Because the consequences are so awful. “Do you want a cookie? The shark will only bite one of your legs off. …What do you mean you’re not tempted?”
But yes. Control. Understanding of what has gone wrong if it does. Energy and sleeeep. Words! All of these are excellent. I am glad you have them.
Yeah, I had to cheat on the weekend when we went out for dinner, and two sleepless nights + another half week of not being able to write is leaving me pretty firmly on the ‘not worth cheating’ side of things. I think from now on when I have to eat out with people I’m just going to order chips and leave it at that. >.< 🙂